I know the true meaning of life after I am blind.
I am a software programmer for a network technology company.
In May of 2006, I was responsible for designing a management program for a company. Due to time constraints, I sat around the computer day and night. Sometimes, in order to avoid disturbing my family’s rest, I turned off the lights in a dark room.After working for a few days, I felt that my eyes were dry and unbearable, and then I was afraid of light. I saw things and flowers. As a result, on the way home when I installed the program for my clients, my eyes suddenly disappeared!
銆€銆€I was admitted to the hospital and the doctor diagnosed “optical nerve atrophy.”
After half a month of treatment, the doctor quietly told my wife: “The medicine used is used, the effect is not obvious, there is no particularly good method at present, I suggest you go to the Chinese medicine to try.
When the wife told me that I had to transfer, I understood what it meant, and the last hope was extinguished at the same time.
銆€銆€I transferred to the Chinese medicine hospital, and many people came to comfort me: “Don’t worry, there is a cure, and now science is so developed, there will always be a way.
“But, I can’t talk in my mouth, can you be in a hurry?”
If you wear clothes and others help to tie the buttons, eat others to help pick up the dishes, go to the toilet and ask someone to help you see which is the men’s toilet. Can you be in a hurry?
銆€銆€In order to avoid the total trouble, I try to reduce the activity, often lying on the bed motionless.
One day after dinner, my wife took me out for a walk. I just cautiously groped my hands and tried to open the plastic curtain. I didn’t expect to touch a woman’s chest with my hand. The lady was scared and the wife was in full view.Underneath, I had to pay a smile and whispered: “Sorry, his eyes are not good.
“On that day, I walked through the door without saying a word, went outside and fell on the wooden board and burst into tears.
銆€銆€In the boundless darkness, I don’t know what to do or dare to think about the future.
However, in the darkness, the family and friends, the pair of warm and generous hands that never changed, let me survive that period.
My wife is busy with work every day, busy with the children, no matter how tired they have to go to the hospital to see me, she always pretends to be as calm as usual, let me listen to her voice in the dark, smell her breath, noHelping the heart to get a little comfort; the old father also accompanied me at the hospital every day, silently serving me tea, washing my face and rubbing my feet, using his old but still powerful hand to hold my hand, just like when I was young,Leading me to the Children’s Palace to see the model show; there are friends, colleagues and customers, so that my ward will always be filled with flowers and laughter. I overcome the resentment of God’s unfairness to me, and is more energetic than anyAt that time, there was a strong attachment to the human world.
And between this resentment and attachment, it is more and more clear that I am infinitely remorseful.
I regret that I always have a good physical quality, I don’t know how to work and relax, and I have to work hard. I regret that I have not spared more time to spend time with my family, and I have missed many sweet and warm home time; even whenThe wife told me inadvertently: “The pot of spider orchids on our balcony is really good!
“When I was desperately trying to remember and I couldn’t remember the way of the orchids, I also regretted why I didn’t spend some time to appreciate the flowers and trees around me, but now I can’t see it. I have been treated for 7 months, IThe vision gradually recovered to 1.
0. Before returning to work, I drove with my wife and son to travel around the country.
I saw the golden leaves dancing in front of the window, seeing the sunset reflecting the distant mountains, and seeing the lake like a blue glass vase on the brown land. I can’t help but sigh again and again: “It’s beautiful!
“After the day, until it is ok, I will take the time to call my wife a few phone calls and ask her what she is doing, in a good mood; after work, even if I am busy, I will never take my work home, not to look at it.”My son’s homework, listen to him telling interesting things between classmates, and then the family sit together and eat dinner from the room; every weekend, I will go to see my parents, I only knew to buy them for them, now I understandValuable gifts also resist the time of Sun Chenghuan’s knees; at work, I still ask myself to do my best, but I don’t always compare my achievements with others. I only hope that I can learn new things every day.In progress; in the face of pressure, troubles and contradictions, I no longer want to establish a perfect image in front of others and bury everything in my heart, I will choose to show people with true feelings.
銆€銆€In this way, when life is about to enter the biology of 40-year-old door, I began to learn and struggle, enterprising, patience and other important lessons: learn to give up, learn to lose, learn to release, learn to meet, learn to appreciate.